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Ultra Malaise

by Robert Schipul

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1.
Make Me Stay 03:44
the sky presses down with a heavy weight the gray of the earth seems to last all day truths cease and lies take their toll all the accepted ideas of life unfolds in your book you’ve stayed true can i stay all day with you in your story it's been proved make me stay all day with you my tongue is tied words cannot find a path the choices that i’ve made the places i’ve been trapped i don’t have the time that it takes to explain it’s brought me to another place if you don’t, then send me a clue can you make me stay all day with you if you’re over and finished and through can you make me stay all day with you in the time that it takes to turn this page in the life that it takes to throw this away in the places i know there’s traces of you in your books and in your writings, you’ve always stayed true past the houses on my old road down the street where i’m supposed to go if i can’t remember where this begins, will i be forced to live it again?
2.
You Can Run 04:04
remember all the dreams you gave away i'm saying things that i thought i’d never say i cast a cloud, it’s the deepest, darkest gray i’m in a corner i thought it would be that way got a question i thought you’d understand got a drink and a gun in the back of the van burning off the shade that others toss my way i've got a gun and a plan but you can run for awhile looking for the other path wondering how you’ll last and you can run run away hoping for another chance another heart to break when the night comes and sets the lights down low when the morning wakes you from the throes you're going deeper and deeper into debt i still don’t have a plan yet but you can run take a break stop the world for just this time in the end it’s fake and fake it well, give a smile knowing that it’s not your thing to give them what they want and what they want is not what you have to give they’ll take it anyways - one less apologist i’ll take it anyways and remain a pacifist i can deal with this you’ll run away in the end
3.
you want to go back you didn’t say, but i saw it in your eyes a castle to a little girl with your father and your mother everyone together, the way you’d like it to be but you had to meet a fool like me you want to go back i hear it in your voice to a time when innocence maintained daddy’s precious girl now he lives like a king while you scrounge for everything and it’s not fair you want to go back you didn’t say but i saw it in your eyes
4.
it took awhile to find along the riverside the pieces lying there and my arms were full from another ride it was really late that night everybody wants to go to heaven but can heaven really hold us all? never sure which side you think you want to take when you hear the battle call whatever it takes you know i will find you not afraid of the dark - i’ll keep searching for you as long as i live i know i will find you just as much as you found me too the light today is such a shade of gray and shades all in-between as much as you know what i want to say i can’t understand anything the rides shut down and the hours are spent now you’re looking for what the punchline meant the people go home and the noise dies down and i’m hiding from the things i’ve found i wish i could take you on all the rides because now it seems they’ve passed you by another day and another chance to let it not happen again whatever it takes you know i will find you and i know that you'll keep looking for me too
5.
Cut-Thru 04:25
sorry babe i didn’t catch your name you know i see you coming around here everyday you can tell that my heart is on fire and my mind is made up i just can’t get enough one more glass of wine before we find the lines that take us there your lips they taste like grapes, like the soft and sullen words they chase i’m in a haze all i see is pale white and the stars in the sky are shining so bright hey maybe i won’t tell you this ok i’ll tell you this because i know it’s alright one more glass of wine before we find the lines that take us there your lips they taste like grapes like soft and sullen words they chase cut through the sky i can see it’s alright i'll let you take me through the night cut through the side i can see it’s all light and let you take me through the night she moves like a siren’s song when my words are all wrong and everyone’s gone just you and me lying here to erase all fear when i hold you near one more glass of wine before we find the lines that take us there you want to get away but you can never leave this place cut through the sky i can see it’s alright i'll let you take me through the night cut through the side i can see it’s pale white and let you take me through the night
6.
picture perfect ideally your coffin’s on the ceiling the greatest of those i know have died not to let it show but i won’t drown in this perilous world i'm not gonna give in, i’m gonna put up a fight i don’t want to hide like i have so many times before, before now some let the world pass them by and some live their life to die i don’t want to give this up i know what i’ve had enough of and not gonna drown in your perilous ocean i'm not gonna give in, i’m gonna put up a fight i don’t want to bleed like i have so many times before, before now does it make you a man, if you made a child cry? does it make me a man if i let you make me? they hold you back in time when you go there
7.
i don’t feel like myself today and i don’t know why must be a feeling of general malaise passing by i saw two cranes yesterday in free-fall now there’s nothing in the air, nothing at all you can get away with a lot you can get away with anything now i can’t tell if i’m wound or exhausted and i can’t see straight might just be a dizzy spell maybe i should wait i heard a beautiful song once, now the melody escapes me i hear the sound of electric machines trying to break free you can get away with a lot you can get away with anything now sometimes the words don’t count sometimes the truth’s not free when we’re dying by the dozens hoping to finally see memories lie memories lie memories lie memories lie the loudest voice wins the loudest voice wins the loudest voice wins the loudest voice wins
8.
I'm That Man 04:05
i know your heart i know this game and all those good intentions float away i know your heart it’s black and blue full of tired regret and nothing true everything that’s broken and resigned you know very well i’m that guy everything that’s worn and wearing thin you know that’s the state that i’m in i know this song it came on before they’ve played it for awhile and it leaves me torn i know this bar i come here a lot it kind of keeps the emptiness from coming out everything that’s broken and resigned you know very well i’m that guy everything that’s worn and wearing thin you know very well i’m that man it’s a long road home it's a long road home it's a long road home and i’m not sure you’ll be there when i go do you know why it takes so long to get here?
9.
catch it it’s falling like water out of the sky this hole three inches i can see a forever-depth in it’s place there are voices here do you hear them calling out to us? to come alive again someone’s born and someone dies and someone will never leave there’s this theory you have after you die you get cut up into 52 pieces like isis but you said you want to go on forever to live forever there’s a lock to this key when you find the perfect fit don’t close your eyes i don’t want you to die you’re gonna live forever don’t close your eyes
10.
Dreamer 03:46
the whole house is empty when the day is at the end ghosts float through the hallway greet me as i round the bend i will try my hardest i will always look both ways had trouble standing up today had some trouble keeping pace what was it like as a child? what was it like yesterday? i tell you can’t remember everything i did anyways every time i look in the mirror i see pairs and pairs of eyes staring right back at me pulling apart all these lies you can throw this on the fire you can rake me over coals you can try to climb higher but the bottom’s falling out and my heart is full of holes you can take another minute you can spin into free fall you can tell me what i’m not but it’s all in the cards and the writing’s on the wall i promise to think only good thoughts i promise to say my prayers at night take another hour to replay whether what i did was right every time i look in the mirror i see pairs and pairs of eyes staring right back at me scraping at all these stupid lies you can try to call a truce you can try to call it off you can find it in the books where the page wasn’t ripped where the lines weren’t loose i can only hear those words i can only see behind i can try to make it worse if i fall out of line keep it out of my mind i can i can you’re falling on the way out

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released March 6, 2020

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Robert Schipul Boston, Massachusetts

Robert Schipul is a pianist, composer, songwriter and synth pop extraordinaire hailing from Boston, MA by way of Pittsburgh, PA. His style can be described as a dreamy, chill, experimental version of late 80s, early 90s alt pop.

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